F a l l i n g in Love

Have you ever fallen in love with the idea of someone? Maybe this someone is someone in particular, someone you know in your life, or maybe they’re just a vision of someone you hope exists and whom you’ll one day meet.

Sometimes, we fall in love with the little things, like the way you feel when this someone’s eyes catch your gaze, even for a second. Sometimes our love grows exponentially until the foundations of the person who we first fell for are lost in a blur of hopes and fantasies about who this person could be, or who we want them to be.

Maybe, in this way, we are not falling in love with someone themselves, but a certain type of someone. The person from whom these feelings stemmed may no longer be the object of love itself – instead we have fallen in love with the characteristics of this person and the idea that a ‘perfect’ person exists based on these ideals.

I wouldn’t say that I am in love with someone in particular, but more with the idea of being in love, one day, whether that the soon or decades away. Maybe we don’t have to be in love with someone to experience love, maybe we can just be in love with the idea of someone who we may meet in years to come.

Maybe this collection of thoughts is slightly too non-sensical and maybe my understanding of love is misjudged. But maybe one day these words might make more sense to someone, somewhere. I hope.

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//Talk Music To Me Tag//

The awesome L nominated me for the Talk Music To Me Tag yesterday and I’d like to thank him a lot because I really enjoyed doing it and I actually feel like I’ve done something productive today now.

Rules:

  • Thank the person that tagged you (cause that’s a nice thing to do!).
  • Write a message that is either meaningful, story-like, funny or just random by only using song lyrics. Try to use as many different song as you possibly can!
  • Let your readers try and guess how many songs (and maybe even which ones) you’ve used.
  • Tag a couple of awesome people.

Okay so this turned out to be a lot bit deeper than I was planning – I guess I must just listen to a lot of music with deep, meaningful lyrics and this is the result! It kind of ended up as a weird, nonsensical message to my crush/any possible future crush (?) and about how it feels to have a crush and find out they like you back (not that that’s happened to me but sssh I can dream)! I didn’t plan to write this, I guess because crushes are something I’m thinking about a lot lately so I was sort of just drawn to these lyrics. Anyway, here it is!

You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve and I have always buried them deep, think now’s the time to let it slide. Why should we care for what they’re selling us anyway? I was scared of dentists and the dark, stuck in a puddle full of tears and unwise, I was scared of pretty girls and starting conversations. Oh I just had a change of heart.                                       

So this is what it’s going to be like – we live through scars this time and I’ve made up my mind. Growing up is a heavy leaf to turn – it’s a different kind of danger and my feet are spinning around but this is your heart, can you feel it?

When we were youngsters we rode our bikes into the sky. Now we walk against the tide but lady, running down to the riptide, these are the things we lost in the fire, fire, fire. In eyes not yet created it, those distant days go flashing by. Nothing seems as pretty as the past though – I’m waiting ever so patiently for you to snap. Out. Of. It.

Christ, I ain’t ever going back to thinking straight…

I don’t think things through – I never get time but you got a look in your eyes. And this is how it starts – I can feel the draw, I can feel it pulling me back. She’s the tear in my heart – oh, oh, I’m falling. Do you know what your doing, doing to me?  

Been in the dark for weeks and I’ve realised you’re all I need – I couldn’t get away, if I wanted to, my hands are tied, tied to you. And I don’t mind – there’s a million combinations and this is one. We’re just different colours – we carry eachother.

Forget the time because I’m seven hours behind – I’ll come around if you ever want to be in love. Anything you need, anytime at all, I want you to call me.

We’ll be talking about your background and how it never left you much so get out, get out while you still can. Find a thing that you love, find a thing you understand and get out while you still can.        

The world is wide from where you stand because you grew up in a small town so you’ll appreciate it more. So why, why do you go wasting your time on me? 

So, as it says in the rules, feel free to guess which songs/artists I used and how many different songs I included. I’ll reveal which songs I used in a few days time. 🙂

Nominations:

I think this is a really awesome tag so I hope you’ll have as much fun doing it as I did. 🙂

Tea Lover Jess

Liss and Dani

Life With Dannielle

Eve (appletaile)

An Overthinking Teenager


[I just want to thank everyone quickly for how lovely and supportive you were towards my last post. I’m still not feeling my best but today was better than I’ve felt the past few days. Also, in regards to the Finding Our Feet Project – I’d like to thank you for all your submissions and I’ll keep you updated as the editing process gets underway.]

P.S May or may not have reused a photo of Van McCann at the Catfish and the Bottlemen concert I went to back in June. (Look at how cool and cute Van looks though!!!)

//#HermEm’s anniversary?!//

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A while ago (and The Blog Squad can back me up here) I announced that I was in love with Herman (this is gonna get so weird to explain so bare with). Basically, Herman is a typo (*gasps* in horror – don’t worry Herman, you’re more than just a typo to me!). I meant to type ‘I love German’ but accidentally typed ‘Herman’ without realising until after I’d pressed send and the wonderful Elly created HermEm (our ship name).

Now Herman isn’t just my imaginary typo boyfriend (I’m weird ok…I’ve warned you many times, so don’t you roll your eyes at me!), Herman represents Germany as a whole and my love towards the country.

Therefore I made today, 19th March, mine and Herman’s anniversary considering it is the date that I flew to Berlin last year and fell in love with the city and country.

So, today marks a year of mine and Herman’s relationship!!!!!

To show Herman just how much he means to me, I decided to make a YouTube video dedicated to him. It is a video scrapbook of my trip to Berlin last year and also includes the poem ‘The City That Stole My Heart’ that I wrote a while ago that was inspired by the city.

Here is the video:

Hope you like it, it makes me so emotional to remember all those amazing memories! (And yes I did waste another whole day filming for YouTube again, like I did last weekend, instead of revising for my mock exams…oops).

I should be going off to spend the rest of our anniversary helping out at a Cub Scout sleepover now BUT my mum won’t let me go because I have a cold/virus thingy and she doesn’t want me to ‘infect’ the kids which sucks because I was actually looking forward to going. :/ So I guess I’ll just have to spend the evening reminiscing about Berlin and being sad that I can’t go back for a while.

Anyway, thanks for reading, I hope you had/are having a better day than me! 🙂 ♥